The Very Best News...for just a little while

So this is what our lives have been about lately. After more than 2 years of trying to conceive, we finally (with fertility treatments) got the very best news the 1st week of November. Elated can't begin to describe how happy I was. We didn't tell MMF because we were waiting to let her tell our families at Christmas. We also knew that we'd be far enough along to start making plans by then. Unfortunately, things didn't work out that way. Our first ultrasound was at 6.4 wks at our fertility dr's office. The baby measured 6.3wks, pretty good, but she couldn't find a heartbeat to measure. Still, she was very optimistic and said she didn't think it was a big deal, that it was fairly common that early on not to be able to measure the heartbeat. She released us to my ob. We had an appointment the following week and another ultrasound. I had been struggling with a worrisome "feeling" all week so my hubby went with me. I'm glad he did. The dr saw the sac right away, but there was no tell-tale flicker, indicating a heartbeat. I started getting really nervous and my husband came over and held my hand. The dr turned on the blood flow scanner. It was blank. I started crying. She measured the baby- 6.3wks. For the second time in my life I was looking at an ultrasound screen viewing a child I was already in love with but wouldn't get to have. I was devastated. My dr, being the wonderful woman she is, scheduled me for the second time, the very next day for surgery to remove the baby. This time she kept it and sent it to be studied. Hopefully, we will have more answers this time to help us going forward.

We told MMF that we thought we were going to have a baby so they had to check in my belly. It turned out not to be true and that made us very sad. That seemed to satisfy her curiosity at the time. My husband also told her that anytime she saw me cry to run over and give me lots of hugs so I would feel better. She was the best at remembering to do that over the next several days while the hormones fluctuated wildly. She still insists that if I take a baby pill every single day we will have another baby. In the meantime, she asks for a baby brother or sister every day in her prayers just to cover all her bases.

I am remaining positive. I believe there is someone else meant to be in our family. I have faith that in Heavenly Father's time it will happen. I'm doing my best to be patient. For everyone out there who is blessed enough to decide when to have their babies and can just make it happen I hope you realize how truly blessed you are. For everyone out there like us who have tried, sought help and failed, prayed, fasted, and shed so so many tears, I walk with you and you have my prayers.

You Just Can't Get Good Help...

We are so lucky that in October we had another visit from Em, (and his mommy & daddy). Everyone was congregated at Go-Go and Papaw's so we joined them for the weekend. We had a GREAT time! Thanks to our cousin for getting married, which prompted the visit. Although it was a packed weekend we managed to have some fun and capture some mischief of, course. Most of the pictures are of MMF and Em "helping" Go-Go water her flowers. As you can see, it was a a tedious job, but very entertaining, twice daily.

Go-Go explaining to the crew for the ? time which plants got watered
Em gets his nose tickled by flowers

Awh, that's it..she finally waters the flowers, after watering the rocks so they can grow big and strong.

As Em pulls on the wind chime, breaking it, "uh-oh! I broked that doojee."

A little water for you (plants), a little for me.

...and some for the dirt!

Any big job warrants a snack. Papaw is handing out Graham crackers shaped like goldfish.

Hidden in the back is a Go-Go behind those two clowns.

We did manage to make a quick trip to LaRosa's all together for a yummy pizza dinner. Just don't get you-know-who the wrong crust on her pizza, ha-ha.

Poor Uncle A. was distraught over what we quietly disclosed as "the crust incident."

Do You Believe In Fairies?

Recently MMF and I did something new. Based on something I read in a magazine, I introduced the idea of a fairy house to her. She just glowed with enthusiasm. We picked a nice, sunny day and headed off to one of our local parks. We took one of the nature trails to gather material to build our fairy house. Of course we had to make an afternoon of it, so we took lunch with us and played at the park for a while first. When we got to business though, we found ourselves on a great adventure. The trail was beautiful. It was just far enough into the woods that the world started to fade away. We found all kinds of material for a great fairy house, including some tree bark, walnuts, leaves, acorns, sticks and a few rocks (of course). We finally headed home with our treasures. We built our fairy house in the backyard under our pine tree. Within a couple of days we could tell we had some fairies move in because they moved things around in the house. We've had so much fun keeping an eye on those mischievous little pixies, and adding to the comfort of their home. MMF is always finding things for it. Wonder how long our little house will last?

The rest of the pictures are kind of random. We recently introduced MMF to one of our favorite restaurants, Pei Wei. She had chicken fried rice and used her chopsticks a lot. It was a fun experience for us all. She also got to do her favorite thing with Papaw a couple of weeks ago, go to one of the area's last fairs. Poor Papaw had a cast on his leg at the time, but he still had fun. MMF dragged me on all the rides I could stand. Before it was over I was actually thankful. It was the first time I can remember getting kind of sick from the rides. She loved it. Another thing she asked to do recently was to visit a pet store, since she wants to be a "ballerina/reglar doctor/vetinarian". We stopped in one day after lunch and played with a couple of puppies. One was a mini daschund and the other was an English bulldog. She asked me if the bulldog spoke English since he was from England. I told her "yes, of course." One of the last things lately was an outing at church that I took her to. She decorated a cookie for her, Daddy and I. As you can see it's hard to tell there is a cookie at the bottom of all the toppings. Life with MMF sure is exciting.

MMF finds a walking stick on our nature walk

MMF with her fairy house

Chicken fried rice from pei wei

Daddy feeding MMF with chopsticks

at the fair

Playing with a puppy she called Kissie

a boy named Daisy

MMF's special Halloween cookie

Random Acts of Fun

Okay, first of all this whole thing is going to be underlined. I don't know how or why, but I can't figure out how to shut it off. Secondly, it's late and I'm pretty grouchy. Third, part of the reason I'm grouchy is because I asked my husband how to add links to my blogsite. I hate having to ask him anything computer related. He automatically assumes every user is familiar with all the language used in any program said user needs help in. If I knew, I probably wouldn't need help... Fourth, did I mention this annoying underlining thing?

Moving forward, I've just been going through some pictures taken over the summer and decided to post a random collection of moments with MMF. Have fun looking through them. Oh, and if anyone knows how to find the underline feature, leave me a comment telling me how to shut it off please!

carousel ride at the zoo. as you can tell i'm trying out new photography features.

mmf and logie at bunny fountains
slightly out of focus due to delicate nature of firefly catching with cousin

best impersonation of tina fay (wearing daddy's glasses)

shelling corn for the animals to eat at a farm park

mmf and em playing a duet at go-go's

riding in her favorite seat on the train at the zoo- the caboose

mmf starts school again

go-go listening intently to mmf

mmf shoe shopping with mama

Happy Birthday Beautiful Baby Girl

My BBG just turned 4 years old! F-O-U-R!!! I cannot believe it. What an incredible, life-changing 4 years it has been. She is AMAZING. I've been in love with her since I saw the double pink line. So what things has she been into over the last year? Read our posts. She's into everything, thinks about everything, and attempts to do everything all on her own. In honor of her birthday, I dug up all these pictures so you can see her life like I'm living it, scrolling fast! I hope you enjoy watching her grow as we have.

BBG (Missy Monkey Feet) when she was born

MMF's first birthday

2nd.

3rd.

4th.

isn't she something?

M-I-C-K-E-Y---M-O-U-S-E!!!! (THE SEQUEL)

Here are the rest of the pictures from our trip. We sure had a good time and already miss the ocean.

Notice how many people are in front of the castle? That's what it was like throughout that area of the park, nice and close...

Here she is with Sleeping Beauty
and Cinderella

Our first beach day at Fort DeSoto. The photo just doesn't do it justice. It was the least crowded place we went the entire time. There were only around 6 other people on the entire beach, none of them close to us.

MMF just before her first step into the ocean.

There go her monkey toes.

She had no fear.

And then when she needed to go potty, without warning the suit came off so she could pee in the ocean. Good thing we were almost alone.

Instead of a sand castle we made a sand elephant. You have to use your imagination and look closely. The seaweed is his hair.

The Shamu rocks show from Seaworld

Shamu

Here is how tired she was after Seaworld. See her holding her cup of water? She took a drink, mumbled something to me while I turned around to get a story to read and this is what I saw when I turned back.

Our last beach day, spent at Clearwater.

This big carousel was in a mall where we went shopping the day before we left. Of course she just had to ride it!

Saying goodbye to Brownie and Nala the day we left.

MMF giving Brownie a little extra love.